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  The journey home is a blur, exhaustion truly setting in. Once we arrive back at Trick’s place, Rafe opens my door.

  “Let me carry you Baby?” he asks, “it was painful just to watch you trying to get in the car, let us help you” he practically pleads.

  “Sure thing Big Guy, walking is overrated anyway” I joke as I lift my arms up.

  He easily scoops me up and out of the truck, striding towards the house like I weigh nothing. In my exhausted state I immediately start to wonder about other situations where he could support my weight, like against the wall, in the shower. I slam the door shut on those thoughts.

  “Shit” I mutter out loud, now is not the time to be having those sorts of thoughts.

  “What’s wrong Angel?” Jensen asks sounding slightly panicked as he hovers beside me.

  “Nothing I’m fine.”

  Rafe and him share a look.

  “Really guys, I’m just tired can we please go to bed?” I ask as Rafe carries me up the stairs the others going ahead, they each duck into their own rooms and by the time Rafe places me on my bed they’re all back in their pjs or lack thereof in Jensen and Luc’s case and making up beds with quilts and pillows on the floor in my room. I raise my eyebrow as I slowly get up and make my way to my closet to get changed, just before I shut the door behind me Trick calls out.

  “You didn’t really think any of us were ok with letting you out of our sight did you?” he smirks, “we all need to keep you close tonight, Sweetheart” he adds and I grin as I shut the door.

  It’s a slow process trying to get out of my now ruined dress, not that I would’ve wanted to wear it again after tonight. It now has too many horrible memories attached to it. I am grateful I’m not trying to take off jeans and lift my arms to take off my top though because once I finally do manage to undo the zip on the dress, it just drops and pools down around my feet. Leaving me stood in my panties and tit tape. I look down at the tape stuck to my boobs eighty percent sure it should’ve stayed stuck to my dress. I’m not going lie, I’m freaking terrified to take it off. I crack the door open slightly.

  “Er guys?”

  “Yes, Sunshine?”

  “I’m going to be honest right now because I have no other way to logically explain it” they all look at me worriedly, “I have to take the tit tape off and I am absolutely freaking terrified, so I’m going to yell whilst I do it, just a little warning before you all come busting in here” I say quickly shutting the door again, it’s silent for a beat before the guys burst out laughing. “Yeah, yeah, laugh it up you jackass’s, carry on and I’ll stick some to your balls and see how you fucking like it” I growl through the door. It falls silent after that but I can still hear quiet snickers.

  After I’ve successfully removed the tape which didn’t hurt nearly as bad as I thought it would, I root around in my stuff for some loose pyjamas and start to get impatient when all I can find is ones that will aggravate the scrapes. I eventually find one of the boys large shirts instead and pull that on. I want all the comfort I can get right now. It’s big enough that it hits my mid thigh. I step out and ignore the guys in mild punishment as I go out of the room to the bathroom. Once I’m done I make it back into the bedroom and crawl up the bed making sure to lie on my good side between Jensen and Luc. I’m out as soon as my head hits the pillow and fall into a thankfully dreamless sleep.

  Chapter Four

  Before my eyes even open the next morning, my nose is sniffing the air exaggeratedly.

  I smell bacon.

  “Is she sniffing in her sleep?” Rafe chuckles.

  “Nope, bacon” I say as an explanation. “I smell bacon, I need bacon and coffee” I sit up still with my eyes closed because I don’t want to fucking open them right now and groan, “and painkillers. I want painkillers too, shit” I groan.

  “Alright Sweetheart come on, lets go get breakfast” Trick says as he steps up to the bed and helps me stand.

  “Hang on, I need pants” I say as I finally peel my eyes open, it’s probably not a smart idea to be walking around with them closed.

  I stumble like I’m drunk to the closet and absently rummage around in the boxes from Victoria secret for some shorts. I still haven’t managed to put away any of this stuff but in my defence it’s been crazy busy lately. I bend over to put on a pair of soft pink shorts and hear a collective groan behind me, I look around still bent over to see all of the guy’s eyes focused on my ass. I giggle as I slowly pull my shorts up. It would have been super sexy or at least I like to think it would’ve been but I accidentally catch the shorts on the grazes on my leg.

  “Ow, fuck” I curse my eyes watering.

  Footsteps run towards me.

  “You ok Firecracker?” Luc asks, coming to stand in front of me and tilting my chin up.

  “Caught my shorts on my bad leg” I grumble.

  I let my body tip forward so my forehead lands on his chest with a soft thump. He chuckles and puts his arms around.

  “Mom says breakfast is ready” Trick calls from the bedroom and the guys all follow him out.

  “Come on Firecracker before the guys eat all the bacon.”

  “They wouldn’t dare” I narrow my eyes as I peak up at him.

  He smirks back at me as he brushes some hair off of the good side of my face and tucks it behind my ear, his expression softening, he leans down and gives me a soft toe curling kiss. God I love kissing him. The words I said in the back of Jeremy’s car when I thought I was going to die, float through my mind and I push them back, too emotionally raw to deal with them right now.

  “Hop on Firecracker, you’re chariot awaits” he grins as he turns around and bends down a bit so I can get onto his back.

  “Onwards noble stead” I giggle as soon as I’m situated on his back, then reach down and smack his ass.

  “Careful Firecracker, I’ll return the favour” he chuckles quietly as we walk out of the bedroom door and towards the stairs, just like Rafe, he carries me like I weigh no more than a backpack. Honestly the ease at which these guys can carry me is damn impressive.

  I lean forward and take his ear lobe in my mouth biting down gently, Luc doesn’t like the pleasure pain line as much as my Trickster does, so I don’t bite as hard as I would if I was playing with Jensen. He groans quietly stalling half way down the stairs.

  “Is that a promise Luc?” I say breathily.

  “What’s the hold-up you two?” Riot asks from the bottom of the stairs but as soon as he sees me clinging to Luc’s back with my mouth near his ear and whatever expression is on Luc’s face right now, he chuckles. “Naughty Ever, are you teasing Luc?” he says amused as Luc starts back down the stairs sharing a look with Riot.

  “Hey, he started it” I defend.

  “Like fuck I did, you smacked my ass” Luc retorts.

  “Yeah well you.. er you” I scramble for a rebuttal, “alright fine I started it” I grumble as Luc puts me down just outside the kitchen laughing at my poor come back.

  I dart past them both as they try to reach me and park my ass on a seat between Trick and Rafe. I lean my head on Rafe’s shoulder.

  “Hey big guy” I say softly.

  He bends down and places a soft kiss on the top of my head, making me sigh happily before I lean over to Trick and giving him a kiss on the cheek before I start piling my plate high with food. I grin happily at Cash as he hands me a cup of coffee.

  “My hero” I whisper dramatically, making him smirk and shake his in amusement.

  “How are you feeling Ever?” Jenny asks.

  I look over to her and Rob, bacon paused halfway towards my mouth.

  “Sore, really sore” I say honestly and see Jensen hop up out of the corner of my eye. “Other than that though, I actually feel really good, relieved that the guy is caught and I don’t have to worry about him anymore. I can just enjoy Christmas and going to the cabin with the guys” I admit.

  “That’s understandable” Rob says sympathy radiating from him.r />
  “There you go, Angel” Jensen says softly as he places a glass of orange juice on the table in front of me and hands me a couple of painkillers.

  I smile up at him gratefully and he bends down kissing the corner of my mouth in front of everyone, which immediately causes me to blush but makes my heart soar with happiness. I take the painkillers as Jensen walks back around to his seat smirking, obviously pleased with himself.

  “I know we planned to have a girly day today watching films and I was going to show you the joys of online shopping but I completely understand if you aren’t up for it” Jenny says kindly interrupting my thoughts of Jensen.

  I think about it for a minute, I had completely forgotten about our planned girly day.

  “Actually that sounds really great, snacks are included right?” I grin and she nods happily.

  “I think Kat would like to come too if that’s alright with you?” She asks.

  “Yeah of course” I grin, I love Kat.

  “Great, what are you boys planning on doing today then?” she asks dishing herself up some more eggs.

  The guys all share a look and then Trick glances at me his eyes worried and his body tense.

  “We don’t want to leave Ever, so we’re going to play video games in my room. We won't disturb you until you guys order takeout” he chuckles.

  My heart squeezes and I realise that I would feel better if they were all still around, I know the stalker fucker has been caught but my nerves are still frayed. Jenny opens her mouth to say something but Rob leans towards her and whispers in her ear, she smiles softly and nods.

  “Ok boys, no reappearances until food though” she says trying to sound stern and failing.

  “Yes, mam” Jensen says grinning cheekily.

  We finish breakfast fairly quickly after that and I hobble upstairs to my room and find some lose sweats and the jumper Jenny leant me the other day to get dressed in. Nice and loose on all my scrapes. Before pulling on the sweats I grab the cream that the doctor gave me and apply some to the grazes on my leg. The numbing agent instantly makes them hurt less and I gingerly pull the sweats up and make my way to the bathroom, my hand eye coordination isn’t excellent on the best of days, I don’t particularly want to get cream in my eye.

  “Are you ok, Baby?” Rafe asks as I reach the bathroom door making me jump.

  “Shit” I exclaiming turning around to a smirking Rafe. “Geeze man make some noise” I complain making him laugh loudly. “I’m fine I just need to put some cream on my face” I explain holding up the white tube for emphasis.

  He studies me for a second before grabbing my hand and leading me in to the bathroom, I make a startled squeak as his hands land on my hips and he hoists me up onto the bathroom counter next to the sink. He holds his hand out and I just stare at him confused before he chuckles quietly, his chest rumbling with the sound and sending shivers down my spine.

  “May I?” he asks pointing to the tube of cream.

  “Oh, yeah sure” I reply handing it over to him and feeling just slightly ridiculous that I didn’t understand what he meant in the first place.

  He gently tilts my face to the side so he can see the damaged side better and ever so gently starts to apply the cream, not causing me any pain whist he does so. The contradiction of this dangerous, strong, giant of a man being so gentle with me has my heart pounding in my chest and butterflies swarming in my stomach.

  “There, all done. I didn’t hurt you did I?” he asks his eyes flashing with concern.

  “No Big Guy, come here” I say softly grabbing a fistful of his shirt and pulling him closer so he settles fully between my open legs.

  I tilt my head up and he immediately knows what I’m asking as his head dips down to meet mine. His lips gently caress mine, before he bites down lightly on my bottom lip making me gasp, he takes advantage and his tongue slips into my mouth, dancing and twirling with mine in a way that has heat searing through my system and my toes curling. Need pools low in my belly and I let out a soft moan as his giant hands skim up the sides of my waist and brush the sides of my boobs, he drops one hand back down to my waist gripping firmly as the other one skims up the side of my neck his hand cupping the good side of my face.

  He groans as my hands run down the front of his t-shirt clad chest before I slip them underneath it as I explore the dips and groves of his impressive form. He isn’t as defined as some of the others but still has lines for me to trace and is all muscle. My hands reach around behind him, my nails scraping lightly down his back and causing him to shudder against me. He deepens the kiss as I pull him even closer, too many fucking clothes right now.

  “As much as I wouldn’t mind watching this play out or hell even joining in” Riot winks as we break apart, his eyes heated, “Jenny is asking for Ever” he finishes and I sigh heavily.

  “Damn it” I growl and they both raise their eyebrows at me before chuckling.

  Rafe helps me down from the counter carefully before he dips his head and gives me one last sweet kiss. I sigh happily as I walk towards Riot who smirks at me. I place my hand on his chest and he dips his head down, his lips meeting mine in a soft kiss.

  “I’m sort of regretting saying I’d do the girly thing now. I just want to stay with you guys” I grumble.

  “I know Sunshine, we want you with us too but you probably should buy some snow stuff for the cabin or you’re not going to be able to enjoy it properly” Riot reasons.

  “And Jenny and Kat are obviously really looking forward to it” Rafe adds, coming to stand at Riot’s side and wrapping an arm his neck and one around my waist. He drops a kiss onto the top of my head and turns to place a kiss on Riot’s cheek but Riot shoots me a quick wink before turning his head so Rafe’s lips land on his. Rafe chuckles quietly against Riot’s lips before deepening the kiss. Both of them tightening their arms around me as I run my hands up their chests. I love that they’ve finally admitted how they feel for each other.

  “Come on, Jenny really was asking for you” Riot grins when they separate.

  “Alright fine” I huff, extracting myself from them as they move towards Trick’s room where they’ve set up everything so they can spend the day gaming, they moved the Tv out of my room earlier.

  I start to walk towards the stairs before I call out, “you know watching you two make out just makes me want to stay with you guys and experiment a bit even more” I grin as they both share a heat filled look before groaning and taking a step towards me.

  I’m already halfway down the stairs though so I turn and stick my tongue out at them. They chuckle wickedly which has me slightly confused until Trick appears as if from nowhere and sucks my tongue into his mouth. I moan embarrassingly loudly and he chuckles before he kisses me harder, his hands gripping my ass, I meet him stroke for stroke as our tongues battle for dominance. When we separate we are both breathing heavily.

  “I warned you about sticking that tongue out, Sweetheart” he smirks before carrying on up the stairs, leaving me leaning against the wall halfway up them and trying to calm my heartbeat.

  “Fucker” I chuckle.

  The three of them smirk from the top of the stairs at me and I flip them the middle finger. Turning resolutely away from them and walking down the rest of the stairs and into the sitting room. The large L-shaped sofa is decked out in more cushions and throws than usual making it look truly inviting. The large coffee table is covered in a variety of different kinds of snacks mostly chocolate based but there are a few savoury options as well. There’s a stack of DVDs and I’m relieved to see not all of them are romantic comedies also on the table are two laptops which I’m assuming we are going to be online shopping on and a couple of notebooks, which is a really good idea since I’m not really sure what I actually need to take with me to the cabin. Just as I go to step into the room further to settle into the cosiness. The door bell rings.

  “I’ll get it” I yell in the direction of the kitchen where I’m assuming Jenny is.

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bsp; “Thank you Ever, I’ll be out in second, do you want a coffee?”

  “Yes please” I call back before pulling open the door.

  “Crap it’s so cold out there” kat mutters as she rushes in, she has a big Tupperware box in one hand with what looks like giant homemade cookies in it and a laptop bag slung over one shoulder. I take the Tupperware box from her and she smiles gratefully before taking off her coat and hanging it up, underneath she is dressed similarly to me in sweats and a big comfy jumper.

  “How’re you doing Tesoro?” she asks kindly.

  “Better now it’s over” I reply and she nods.

  “Good I’m glad, a bit of retail therapy will help too” she winks and I giggle. “I’m guessing my son and the others are still here?”

  “Yep” I reply chuckling again.

  “Thought so” she grins, “cover your ears Tesoro.”

  I eye her curiously but do as she asked.

  “Cash!” She yells at the top of her lungs making me giggle, now I understand the need for me to cover my ears, damn she’s loud.

  “Mama, I told you, you don’t need to yell that loud” Cash grumbles as he comes down the stairs.

  He walks up to his mom and wraps her in a hug, he’s so much bigger than her that she barely reaches his chin, only being about and inch or two taller than me. She reaches up and grabs his face asking him and string of questions in Italian most of which he rolls his eyes at but answers anyway, when she’s finally satisfied he steps back out of her reach and pulls me in front of him, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his chin on the top of my head. Which instantly causes Kat’s smile to widen.

  “There you are!” Jenny exclaims from behind me rushing forward and grabbing Kat’s hand and tugging her into the lounge.

  “Come on Ever” Kat says.

  “See you later Il mio Cuore” Cash says spinning me in his arms and causing his mom to gasp behind me. I would ask why but at that moment Cash dips his head to mine and kisses me. I sigh dreamily as he pulls away and he chuckles spinning me back around to face the living room and the two grinning moms. He gently pushes my dazed ass self in the right direction, slapping my ass then chuckling as I shoot him a warning look over my shoulder.